Andy is once again away on business until Friday. It's okay though because I could use some alone time to wrap my head around the idea of being engaged. Honestly, I never thought I'd be here again, but I'm so glad that I am.
Last night I had a bit of a mental panic as I realized how 'heavy' our lives were going to be for the next three years. Last week we wrote down a three year plan so we could see how everything would play out and let's just say that we're going to be beyond busy.
Now I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to a) finish my bachelors, b) plan the dream wedding, and c) prepare for a move for grad school all at the same time- not to mention being supportive while Andy works on his master's and won't have much time or patience for wedding plans. Good thing I'm great at multi tasking.
In all honesty, I just want the next three years to be amazing. It's going to be a time of huge change and growth for us and I want it to be an adventure, not a complete headache.
Right now I'm trying hard to hang on to my enthusiasm about my education, which is rapidly shrinking to the back of my mind, as I get more and more excited about planning the wedding. Balancing the two is going to be a challenge.
It was much easier to focus on school when a wedding was something that was still far in the future. But now that it's staring me in the face that seems to be all I can think about!
A few months ago we had talked about when the right time would be and we both agreed that for the sake of our sanity we should wait until I had finished my undergrad and could take a little break from school.
We always knew that we were going to get married.....someday.....but as soon as we began talking about it, and it became more 'real,' I don't think that either of us could wait for it to happen.
Now 'someday' is now and I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed and giddy with happiness and excitement for all the crazy to start.
Yesterday, while working in the computer lab, I spent the entire time browsing wedding stuff and trying to figure out how I could work enough hours to pay for the kind of wedding I'd like to have not to mention save for a possible move for grad school.
I should have been spending the time finding sources for my research paper, but I just couldn't even concentrate on school.
Anyway, I just have a million things swimming around in my mind right now and I'm having a hard time figuring out what to think about and solve first. Or maybe I should just go to the movies tonight and give myself a break from thinking at all.