I just happened to glance at the date on my computer and faultered a little when I realized that today I would have been celebrating my 6th wedding anniversary had I not gotten divorced last year. It feels like time has jumped so far ahead. I have gone through so much in the last 24 months and I honestly can't believe that I am where I am now. Happy.
Have you ever just resigned to sadness and darkness? I had. I had truly believed that I would never fully be happy. My life was in shambles and I had no idea how to begin to pick up the pieces. I honestly didn't really want to try either.
It's an awful feeling to give up on your hopes and dreams for your future and just live day by day hoping to somehow make it work. But the sadness and bad things in my life are gone now and I feel so blessed.
I'm back in school and energetic about my chosen major. I have plans for a master's degree, eventually. At this point in my life, I actually know I can meet that goal. That negative person who dominated my life and pulled me down so far was gone. And in his place now, is Mr. Right, a wonderful man who loves me unconditionally and never lets me forget it.
I'm happy that I will never celebrate this anniversary ever again. I'm happy that I have a second chance at life. I had believed at this point two years ago that I would never have the life I have now. Life works in mysterious ways and I am grateful every day that I was able to crawl out of my dark hole and fall in love with life again. Fall in love with love again.
So here's to a brand new day and starting brand new, amazing things!!