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praise the Essay Gods

i survived without killing my professor

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it snowed today
i have mixed feelings about snow

how can something so beautiful
be so damn cold!!

Enough!!

Sometimes- yes.

But for a week straight and counting?!!!

I've had enough of me already!!

Make it stop.

I just want to laugh again and skip and dance and be HAPPY!!

No more mood swings, plz!

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count down to friday

i'm tired of living paycheck to paycheck

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i have a sandwich problem

i continually make the same mistakes

when it comes to sandwiches

mistake #1:

cucumbers

i really like cucumbers

but for some reason, every time i get them on my sandwich

i don't like it and i think 'next time, no cucumbers'

but next time comes and i order cucumbers

sometimes i even have a little argument with myself

and then still end up ordering cucumbers

mistake #2:

my eyes are always bigger than my stomach

typically by the time i get around to eating,

i'm starving.....famished....

about to kill over from lack of nourishment

so i convince myself that i can eat a whole

(or a foot long if i'm at Subway)

every single time i make it through half the sandwich

only to realize what a fool i was to order a whole

mistake #3:

justifying

i always justify ordering a whole or a foot long

based on the fact that i will just save the rest

and eat it for lunch the next day

never happens

we all know why

by the time tomorrow comes

your sandwich is soggy

so instead of getting two lunches out of one

i end up wasting half of my lunch

and going hungry the next day

or spending more money

on another foot long sandwich

with cucumbers

Escaping

I don't think I can stop myself from escaping into my little dream world today- the world where I avoid all responsibility whatsoever, get absolutely nothing of any importance done, and wistfully waste my time perusing Etsy and Anthropologie and playing on Polyvore and ShopStyle.

I know, I know. I had every intention of buckling down this week and studying my fanny off, but I'm just so tired!!! I'm so tired of running, working, trying, pushing, and on and on. I just want to play for awhile.

The leaves are changing and the air feels cool in the morning. I just want to go walking and listen to music and take it all in and free my mind of deadlines and assignments and to do lists.


This is the part where I crash from all the busyness I was craving just three short months ago.

This is the part where I would much rather spend hours here:

or here:
Gigantic sigh!

Andy went to his parents house a few days ago and I was in a pouty mood all day that I couldn't go with him and sit at the kitchen table chatting with his mom or wander around their yard and feel envious of all their flower beds.

I talked with my mom last night on the phone and we sadly realized that it's been a couple months since I was at her house. That makes me very unhappy because she is alone there and I just want to spend the day painting crafts or raking leaves or baking cookies with her.

And I miss my sister who lives so far away! I want to take a weekend to visit her. Take the half day car trip with my music turned up loud and nothing but my own thoughts to keep me company. I want to do our nails together and go shopping and play with the puppy!

And I'm still crying over the fact that I can't buy books and I WANT BOOKS!! I wish that was me at that desk and this was a room in our house.

And I can't get these little treasures out of my mind that Andy and I saw weeks ago when we were at Urban Outfitters.




I keep trying to get ahead with school work and money and everything else, so I can afford to take a break and indulge myself, but it never seems to work. I just continue to crawl along at this painstakingly slow pace and it makes me so frustrated!!

Sometimes life is so not fair and even I have a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

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"Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time,

destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end."

~Author Unknown